Oh me!

We are so small between the stars & so large against the sky. and lost in subway croud, I try to catch your eye …..

Kunal Verma (1984 – 2009)


My earliest memory of Kunal (Kunnu) is of him sitting in Navu’s room 246 Shivalik Hostel in 2002, taking some stuff from Navneeraj. I had just joined the college and did not know many of my classmates by face or by name. The first question that was asked was – what’s ur name and branch, followed by “what’s your rank?”. The latter often led to questions on IIT rank. It was then I noted that Kunnu had achieved a good rank at JEE entrance but somehow could not make it to finals. I had an instant opinion that this shy guy was intelligent.

Over time I came to know about the day-ski group consisting of Rajat,RG, Sharara, Buddy, Jasleen, Vachla and Kunnu. Somehow kunnu was different from others. He was soft spoken, shy and a simple person. I had interned with him in Kotsons, Agra where we were staying together at his Chacha ji’s home. We both used to stay at the top floor room, where Chachaji had kindly installed a cooler to keep us warm from the sweltering heat. The evening was spent in walking around the locality, looking at transformers and happily amusing ourselves by putting to practice our newfound knowledge. Every day we used to go to the bazaar where we used to drink “Bel ka sharbat” – a sweet yellow drink. Because Kunnu did not know how to drive, I used to drive the scooter to work in the summer of 2004, and we used to keep on chatting about so many things..

Kunnu was a down to earth person who was very interested in knowing about new things. We used to discuss current affairs, what’s going on in college, who is doing what in class, some music and all that stuff that Second Yr students usually discuss. Agra was experiencing electricity cuts that summer and quite often at night we used to find ourselves sleeping under the open sky, talking about the day’s events. Through our talks I realized that Kunnu was quite inquisitive and always wanted to improve himself. Even in Noida when I used to visit RG , Kunnu and I talked about all things under the sun. At that time he was very interested in MBA and I was only too happy to give him my idiotic Gyaan

He had no deceit in him, he could not harm anyone and he was too simple to fool any person. When were in Agra He once said, “Its too hot, I’ll wear a wet Gamcha around my head to keep cool while going to Kotsons” . I had laughed a lot about this and said, “pagal hai kya, pata hai kitna ullu lagega tu!”. It was only a simple person like him who could think of doing things like these, which the image-conscious me could not even imagine.

And I think it was precisely that he was so harmless and simple that people used to take his case, ad infinitum, ad nauseum.

People think that it was a love affair that killed him. I disagree.

It was his ‘friends’ who drove him to such desperation and sadness. I wont say what exactly happened, But his friends know very well what they did with him, how they behaved with him, how they used to make fun of him. With not even a single anchor, not even a single true friend..how would someone feel? I really don’t know.

Let the world think that it was a failed love affair, after all the world wants to be deceived; so let it be…Mundus vult decipi, ergo decipiatur

From my side, Kunnu I’m sorry , I never gave you a call, never replied to your messages.. I was too busy in my own idiotic life to think of anybody else. I’m truly sorry to have failed you.

Peace be upon you.

Rajat-RG-Me-Kunal in PEC Chandigarh, 24 may 2006

Rajat-RG-Me-Kunal in PEC Chandigarh, 24 may 2006

posted under English, futility, PEC
11 Comments to

“Kunal Verma (1984 – 2009)”

  1. On January 21st, 2010 at 10:06 pm Moin Says:

    Hi Varun,

    You are talking about Kunal from Perot systems. He was indeed a very good human being. We never worked together, but he was part of my previous team when i left that project, and we were in touch by sms.

    I am totally shocked.

    He shud not have taken this extreme step.

    may his soul rest in peace.

  2. On January 21st, 2010 at 11:47 pm bhaiyyu Says:

    Yes, I am talking about the same person.

  3. On January 21st, 2010 at 11:49 pm Buddy Says:

    I used to speak to kunal avg 2 hours per week, where we would share in lengths about his love life and feelings.

    All i know is the past 6 months were full of misery, where anyone would go insane – he had lost interest and desire for everything be it his proffession, friends, books, movies.
    All he wanted was someone in life to give him love, support and importance. Day after day he was deceived and humiliated by someone he though was his soul mate.

    With no one to listen or understand what he was going through, he was isolated and pushed to insanity. This mad world has no space or acceptance for simple people to breath and be the way they are.

    Love you kunal !

  4. On February 1st, 2010 at 10:40 pm Rashmi Says:

    ‘ll always miss u bro….

  5. On November 7th, 2010 at 4:29 pm A K Verma Says:

    Why God creates so innocent people ?

    As a father and Human being i can not understand till today what made him to take such step? . I will request his friends to share their views give me information whatever they know

  6. On November 7th, 2010 at 4:43 pm A K Verma Says:

    Why there was no friend to tell me that he was undergoing in such a bad relationship. How that girl can play with life of so innocent Boy?. Why she has done this ?………

  7. On May 14th, 2011 at 5:33 pm A K Verma Says:

    Today is your birthday.We remember you every moment.I think as parents we failed to make you understand how much we love you.This world is very cruel and clever. Innocent and simple people like you will always suffer.

  8. On May 14th, 2011 at 5:35 pm A K Verma Says:

    I thank you Varun for remembering my Son.

  9. On August 18th, 2011 at 8:50 pm deepak Says:

    I am really shock today on hearing about it……Hope you rest in peace…yeh duniya bahut kutte cheez haah they dnt let good people to live…..Kunal was decent and innocent guy…i still rem when i used to pass by his group, they had habit of passing wrong remarks to others but i never saw him every speaking at back of him…….he was kind and genre…i agree with varun …he dnt die due to love….he was intelligent guy and would have recover if friends would have taken his care instead of making remarks…..some people think its fun to irritate others……although, i was never close to u dost but hope we are frds in next live if it ever exists…. Hope dost u are not innocent in next life coz this cruel world will never let u live peacefully in next life….

  10. On August 29th, 2012 at 7:22 am DAPINDER Says:

    When this accident happned??????

  11. On October 18th, 2012 at 8:44 pm bhaiyyu Says:

    3 years back, Noida

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